Rumahku terbuat dari karang
Sudah lama mati, kubiarkan saja
Kau datang
Menghidupkan kembali karang-karang itu
Merah, biru, hijau, emas
Hampir ku lupa keindahannya
Kadang aku masih sering tenggelam
di bawah sana masih ada pusaran mengerikan
Kau selalu menarikku keluar
Membawaku ke atas, lalu naik balon udara
Kau bilang:
"Lihat, dari sini semua terlihat indah, bukan?"
Kengerianku terhapus sudah
Tergantikan senyum
Sering aku meragukan adanya seorang penyelamat bagiku
Mengancammu dengan pisau
Agar aku yakin ini bukan hanya proyeksi simpatik pikiranku
Kau bilang:
"Tusuk aku. Tapi aku harus memakai baju baja ini agar aku masih dapat melindungimu nanti."
Kutusuk kau
Pisau patah
Ternyata kau nyata
Suatu hari kau sedang sibuk membangun rumah kita
Rumah impian
Aku menuntut terlalu banyak detil
Melebihi limit yang kau sanggup
Kau menjadi garang
Aku marah seperti biasa
Kau gusar luar biasa
Ku ancam kau dengan pisau
Satu-satunya senjata yang ku tahu
Seperti biasa kau bilang:
"Tusuk aku."
Tapi kali ini kau tak pakai baju baja-mu
Dengan gelisah tetap kuterjang kau
Ternyata kau pun belum siap untuk tertusuk
Kau tampis tanganku, pisau menancap balik ke dadaku
Satu milimeter dekat jantung
Sakit sedikit
Tidak
Aku bohong
Sakit luar biasa dahsyat
Merah mewarnai bajuku
Kau menjerit histeris
Aku tergolek di tanah
Pandanganku hanya mengarah ke satu titik
Diikuti luncuran kata-kata berlumur darah:
"Bertahanlah. Ini rumah kita."
Monday, August 30, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Air Genangan
Damai penuh inspirasi seperti air danau
Indah memikat seperti air sungai
Penuh keriaan seperti air kolam renang
Itu bukan aku
Jangankan keperkasaan air laut,
kesukacitaan rintik hujan,
kefaedahan air sumur,
bahkan kemudharatan air bah pun aku tiada
Hanya satu-dua kucing menghampiriku
meregukku satu-satu dalam keputusasaan
tak sudi ia berbanyak-banyak
Padahal tiada pula ia membaca kitab biologi
Kadang aku merintih saat terlindas
Pelak pula aku menjadi sumber melankoli
Volume air mataku hanya mengundang umpatan manusia
Ah... Apa peranku ini?
(June 22nd, 2010)
Indah memikat seperti air sungai
Penuh keriaan seperti air kolam renang
Itu bukan aku
Jangankan keperkasaan air laut,
kesukacitaan rintik hujan,
kefaedahan air sumur,
bahkan kemudharatan air bah pun aku tiada
Hanya satu-dua kucing menghampiriku
meregukku satu-satu dalam keputusasaan
tak sudi ia berbanyak-banyak
Padahal tiada pula ia membaca kitab biologi
Kadang aku merintih saat terlindas
Pelak pula aku menjadi sumber melankoli
Volume air mataku hanya mengundang umpatan manusia
Ah... Apa peranku ini?
(June 22nd, 2010)
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Dusts (Series of Own Thoughts)
"Kecenderungan berkomunikasi dengan Tuhan di social network membuat saya bingung akan motif aslinya." (June 17th, 2010)
"Kelinci menarikan tarian ubur-ubur dan makhluk laut pun menertawakannya." (June 16th, 2010)
"Solitary by heart is devastating." (June 11th, 2010)
"When excess baggage causing a major depressive disorder." (June 11th, 2010)
"People I used to see as the good looking ones, no longer look that way. Should I pity them or pity me for having a false conception?" (June 3rd, 2010)
"Now I see, how time really fades the physical beauty away." (June 3rd, 2010)
"You're not originally bitter. Just don't try too hard. It's silly." (May 29th, 2010)
"Sometimes some people forget the fact that they're not police, judge, or God." (May 29th, 2010)
"A wimpy wispy witch who whips a wick by winking wickedly" (May 28th, 2010)
"The hater is the loner. It'd be great if she finds another hater. They'd be a hateful couple live 'hatingly' ever after." (May 28th, 2010)
"The villain gets its reputation from being victimized by the victim who makes itself over-victimized." (May 28th, 2010)
"And when everybody knows where you are, what's the point of it?" (May 28th, 2010)
"Bad dreams.. Bad thoughts.. Bad memories.." (May 28th, 2010)
"Well then.. I'm on my bed.. No sea-waves, no moonlight, no stars.. At least I'm safe and sound.. Should be grateful for it." (May 28th, 2010)
"...and live currently, not worrying for tomorrow nor regretting the past." (May 28th, 2010)
"Salahkan siapa kalau bangsa ini kecanduan mi instan?" (May 25th, 2010)
"'Sebenarnya aku ingin tinggal di luar negeri..', desah arwah seorang pahlawan, menyaksikan upacara mengenang kepatriotannya." (May 25th, 2010)
"Omongan bisa direm, tp pikiran sibuk banget begaul sm kata2 jahat." (May 20th, 2010)
"Twitter is a way you talk to yourself in a loud mode. Sometimes it's annoying, but hey, you choose it that way, don't you?" (May 19th, 2010)
"Controversy within me.. hmmpphh.." (May 19th, 2010)
"And even the cat jumped away when I was starting whining to her." (May 19th, 2010)
"Such a scary, wacky place, mind is." (May 17th, 2010)
"Is this illusion? Can this be real? I count to 3, you're still there. I count to 3gazillions, and you're still there..." (May 13th, 2010)
"a sudden boost, a sudden rebuff. oh life..." (May 11th, 2010)
"What's the point of you roaring out loud to the whole world how much money you've got???" (May 7th, 2010)
"An acute exacerbation advanced chronic money-spending syndrome." (May 6th, 2010)
"Someday I'll have a medieval castle to be called 'home'." (April 14th, 2010)
"Collect the uncollectable. Wear the unwearable. Do the undoable. Keys to make you stand-out." (April 14th, 2010)
"Kelinci menarikan tarian ubur-ubur dan makhluk laut pun menertawakannya." (June 16th, 2010)
"Solitary by heart is devastating." (June 11th, 2010)
"When excess baggage causing a major depressive disorder." (June 11th, 2010)
"People I used to see as the good looking ones, no longer look that way. Should I pity them or pity me for having a false conception?" (June 3rd, 2010)
"Now I see, how time really fades the physical beauty away." (June 3rd, 2010)
"You're not originally bitter. Just don't try too hard. It's silly." (May 29th, 2010)
"Sometimes some people forget the fact that they're not police, judge, or God." (May 29th, 2010)
"A wimpy wispy witch who whips a wick by winking wickedly" (May 28th, 2010)
"The hater is the loner. It'd be great if she finds another hater. They'd be a hateful couple live 'hatingly' ever after." (May 28th, 2010)
"The villain gets its reputation from being victimized by the victim who makes itself over-victimized." (May 28th, 2010)
"And when everybody knows where you are, what's the point of it?" (May 28th, 2010)
"Bad dreams.. Bad thoughts.. Bad memories.." (May 28th, 2010)
"Well then.. I'm on my bed.. No sea-waves, no moonlight, no stars.. At least I'm safe and sound.. Should be grateful for it." (May 28th, 2010)
"...and live currently, not worrying for tomorrow nor regretting the past." (May 28th, 2010)
"Salahkan siapa kalau bangsa ini kecanduan mi instan?" (May 25th, 2010)
"'Sebenarnya aku ingin tinggal di luar negeri..', desah arwah seorang pahlawan, menyaksikan upacara mengenang kepatriotannya." (May 25th, 2010)
"Omongan bisa direm, tp pikiran sibuk banget begaul sm kata2 jahat." (May 20th, 2010)
"Twitter is a way you talk to yourself in a loud mode. Sometimes it's annoying, but hey, you choose it that way, don't you?" (May 19th, 2010)
"Controversy within me.. hmmpphh.." (May 19th, 2010)
"And even the cat jumped away when I was starting whining to her." (May 19th, 2010)
"Such a scary, wacky place, mind is." (May 17th, 2010)
"Is this illusion? Can this be real? I count to 3, you're still there. I count to 3gazillions, and you're still there..." (May 13th, 2010)
"a sudden boost, a sudden rebuff. oh life..." (May 11th, 2010)
"What's the point of you roaring out loud to the whole world how much money you've got???" (May 7th, 2010)
"An acute exacerbation advanced chronic money-spending syndrome." (May 6th, 2010)
"Someday I'll have a medieval castle to be called 'home'." (April 14th, 2010)
"Collect the uncollectable. Wear the unwearable. Do the undoable. Keys to make you stand-out." (April 14th, 2010)
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